such is the self-delusion of the Virgin Unemployed

江湖风云出我辈,

一入江湖岁月催,

煌途霸业谈笑中,

不胜人生一场醉'

- 令狐冲

I'm officially part of the unemployment statistic now.

The ambivalence of graduation is probably not unlike getting 逐出师门-ed. That loss of an self-identity as a student which you have defined yourself with since as long as you can remember, the fear of the exploring great unknown, the metaphoric 江湖 where every mis-step could spell the end of your career, the treachery of 武林败类s and hypocrisy of the 岳不群s who would are just waiting to finish you up.

There’s probably more to life than just the rat race and there is certainly an alternative to that, like those middle-aged Korean and Japanese boho backpackers met on the farm who were the absolute antitheses to the East Asian Salariman stereotype. But the more pertinent question is, do we have the courage to head down that uncharted path? Certainly not me...for now..at least...i hope...argh...
Ok, I probably can’t see myself doing that. I’m a just closet, fantasising bohemian with a rat’s brain. Sigh...有多少人能真正的笑傲江湖呢？

It's bad enough that I've failed in finding my 任盈盈, but when can I learn my 独孤九剑 and start pwning?

我的风清扬，你到底在哪里！

Baby steps for now, for life is just an RPG game with no save and load function...