summation speech 081203

well what do you know, it's been almost a week since i last blogged..so anyway let's see. first there was the debate camp i went to last thurs, and watched a debate between cat high and rgs. rgs is certainly down and out... they lack the decorum to even quiet when their opponents are making a speech (not to mention that they are butt ugly), certainly not what you would expect from a sch that produced so many national debaters. amos and mark have both made significant improvements, esp mark. he's probably the only glimmer of hope for any chances of success next yr. sigh....it would probably be quite some time before we even see cat high challenging the honours again. then, later that day i went to toyz bar with the ord gang. it was eventually revealed that that was in fact gaya's birthday, so how can we let him go home sober? well unfortunately our wallets aren't as thick as the stack of 1206 forms in CO's office and so we were unable to make him as pissed as the ord bbq haha. dad and mum flew off on fri. dun really think that that makes much difference to my liberty cos at the same time, gu ma is there to provide the checks and balances....all time debaters' fav jargon... and to think that i was supposed to be taking care of her. went karaoke on fri nite and that was smashing until kurt decided to ask sarah 'formerly de BQ' to join us....damn sian, not like i gave a damn though, still continued singing hokkein songs and cantopop, it was that same fateful night where first, i witnessed the most expensive pool punch in my entire life so far - a grand total of $84 ++ for 2 pool tables chalking a total of 7 hrs play time!! that's about $12.80 an hour. WTF. to put things in perspective, mechmasters charges $2 - 3++ and even Poolworld charges like only $4-5....and the second thing that fateful night was witnessing the aftermath of an accident where a mercedes crashed right into the side of the pavement opposite wheel lock's place. like all callous singaporeans, i temporarily fell prey to temptation and uttered out loudly 'Oei! ai buay ho bey mai?'....oblivious to the fact that apparently the family of the perpetrator of the accident was like 3 m away from me....how mean....well anyway for the record the car's number's 3228, and i did eventually place the bet on behalf of teo and bq, and just deserts upon us...we won as much money as wycombe wanderers won league titles. saturday, played pool and did some catching up with jialong and sam...sigh, they are about one of the few jc frens that i constantly keep in touch and that was like our first meeting in so long.. sunday, went to xander's house for debate meeting, initially it was thought that there was something major to discuss about cat high debates' future....it turned out to be a fun PS II session. met up with ben and some other juniors....time sure flies.... hansel and jonny's batch are enlisting soon and ben's getting married somewhere in 2005...i'm really feeling older now. so that's where it went, chit chat, talking cock, but one thing that ben said did make me do some thinking. he commented that he feels that he is unable to continue coaching due to his inability to remain bi-partisan about any issues. he feels a need to take a stand, moral or subjective on any issues. 'it comes with age' he asserts. what would mine be? i have totally no values in life, totally ambivalent, and i just can't visualise my life beyond next june much less core values....would that, then consitute a personality crisis? what about not wanting to have any values, any stand on anything? i half-suspect that that might jolly well be my stand. the path of cowardice trodded by the average ambivalent post-teenager. expediency, whatever allows me to lead a comfortable life, i believe in it. xander shares this philosophy too. that's the product of the average gen y, born and breed in first world singapore, unable to appreciate the less materialistic aspects of life much as we try to...but just how far can this pursuit sustain? whatever, let's just worry about getting the goods first and not what to do with 'em.